So long it's been since last posting. oh well. just thought it would be interesting to write something in lieu of the last few years and their impact. reaching now ground zero where there is nothingness all around just empty space not caring not attached just accepting and being in the pain not fighting surrendering I spent all day in bed reading resting contemplating trying hard to not think just to be clearing cobwebs from the mind finding solace in quiet, clean air and the fan. Tomorrow I should have been on my way to Yahud. To visit Yehudah Ben Yaakov. Unfortunately I missed my chair in trying to sit and fell down hard on the stone floor I can still feel my legs I believe it is a sprain or maybe a hairline fracture of the coccyx Regardless - it is painful I should be grateful that I didnt kill myself as I've heard these things happen from time to time.